5. Hunger

Eric came awake to the slamming of car door.  “Sookie?” he called out a little anxiously as he turned to face her.  Her inquisitive face peeked around the driver’s seat.  He let out of sigh of relief to see her there.  Lafayette was missing. Raising an eyebrow, she answered before he could ask.

“Bathroom break.”  He let his head fall back and closed his eyes.

“Sookie, is it true?”

“Yes, Lafayette went to the bathroom,” she said seriously.

“No, I mean that you were with me always.  That you were there when I was a baby, when I was growing up and even after at school and in LA.  You’ve always been there?”  He heard her breath catch and opened his eyes to look at her.  She looked like he had punched her in the face. “It is,” he said softly, his tone filled with wonder.  “Fuck, it is true.”

“H-how did you know?” she was frozen.  Would he be angry?  Did he feel angry?  Checking the tie there was no anger, just a waves of…awe.

“I dreamed that you were there.” Fucking blood tie.  She bit her lip.  He turned over in the seat to face her, pulling his knees up so that his feet rested on the back of the seat, the knees of his long legs touching the back of the front passenger seat.  His hand came up to her cheek, the look on his face showing that he doubted that she was really there.  She didn’t pull back this time, something in his eyes, or in the tie still had her frozen. “You were Lily.”

“That’s what you called me, yes.”  She unconsciously turned her cheek into his hand, her eyes on his.

“And Lady Mischief?’

“Yes.”

“Mickey and Sheba, too.”

“I really like cheese and tuna,” she said so quietly he could barely hear her.  “Sometimes, I have them together.”  He smiled and ran his thumb over her cheek.

“I’ve always been really good reading people, but I missed you entirely.”  She frowned.

“No, you didn’t.  You saw me and loved me every day.”

“Not like you wanted me to love you.”  She opened her mouth and then slowly shut it again. She was fighting to speak, or maybe to not speak, he couldn’t tell.  His gaze zeroed in on her lips as her mouth opened and closed and he thought of her scorching kisses in the dream.  Is this the beginning, finally?   He wanted her to ask that now so he could answer her with a kiss as he did then.

Suddenly, the passenger door opened and Lafayette climbed back in.  “You better go, too while we stopped,” he said, shattering the moment.  She pulled back and turned around in her seat. Eric let his hand drop, disappointment flooding his body.  That was almost a moment they had there, damnit!  Sighing, he sat his tall body up and slid across the seat to the door.  He looked at Sookie and saw her reaching for the door handle as well.  When he got out she was at his side looking around the parking lot with keen eyes.  When he started to move she moved with him.

She stepped in front of him opening the door of the small gas station first, her eyes still searching for what he presumed were threats of any kind.  She led the way to the restrooms and stood outside the door as he went in.  He had a feeling that if it wouldn’t have drawn unwanted attention she would have gone in with him, but she stopped at the door, only a shout away if he needed her.

Guess shape shifting, ninja fighting, teleporting bad ass guardians don’t have to pee, he thought as he went in.  There was no one in there so he finished his business quickly and was ready to rejoin her when he caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror.  He looked like warmed over shit.  Which all things being equal, was about right.  He splashed some water on his face and dried off with a paper towel.  It didn’t really help.

Who are you? He thought to the image in the mirror.  No answer there.  His fist clenched and he wanted to punch his silent image in the face, but he refrained.  How could he not have known?  Never even suspected?  But then why would he?  Why would anyone think that the family dog or the adopted pet mouse was actually a beautiful bad ass woman there to protect him from a Dark Fae King?  He chuckled at himself and his color started to come back.  Thinking that it was possible that the twinkle in his eye might not be madness he turned around, leaving the restroom on a high note.

When he opened the door she was gone.  His heart sped up as he stood on tip toe and looked around the small store.  He didn’t see her.  “Sookie?” he called stepping away from the door. He saw her hand pop up an isle over and heard a muffled answer.

“Here.” When she stood up she had a pack of Twinkies between her teeth and  her hands full of  two more.  He moved to her and reached up to take the ones out of her mouth looking at her with a smile and an eyebrow up.  “What?” she asked.  “I really like Twinkies, too.”

“I can see that, I just don’t understand why.”  Rather than explain she asked if he wanted anything.  Shaking his head he moved to the cooler and got three bottles of water.  “You’ll need this to keep your kidneys from shutting down,” he teased her as they moved to the register.  She didn’t answer as she paid for the supplies but he saw the smile on her face in the mirror behind the counter as he stood behind her.  It made him feel ridiculously happy.

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Lafayette was watching them from the car and he could see that whatever Eric felt for her was definitely returned from the woman he called Sookie.  What kind of fucked up name is Sookie anyway, he wondered as he squirmed in his seat.  He wasn’t happy about what he was doing, but he really had no choice.  He needed the money to provide the care his mother needed.  Keeping her in a state of the art mental hospital was not fucking cheap.

He had been two shades away from losing the shirt off his back when Warlow had come to him and offered him an incredible amount of money to keep tabs on the new guy.  Lafayette had only met Eric once then, it was only later when he got to know him and realized what a genuinely nice guy he was that his conscience started to bother him.

It had eased up when Warlow told him it wasn’t really Eric he wanted, it was the woman that he was watching through the window now.   He wanted Lafayette to help him lure her out so that Warlow could take her.  Lafayette didn’t even know her, had never seen her, and didn’t believe she even existed before this morning.

Warlow had called before they left the station telling him to take Eric to breakfast.  There they would lure out the woman and Warlow would take her.  He hadn’t believed she was going to show until she did.  The men Warlow had sent had pulled her out of hiding just as the King had planned.  Evidently, the teleportation was not something he had known about or this morning would have ended very differently.

He ran a hand over his face.  She had really believed she was saving him then.  She still believed it now.  His conscience dug at him again.  Maybe she had really saved him, he wasn’t dumb, those bullets had been real and they had sprayed them over that diner like a garden hose in summer.  They really didn’t seem to upset about who they might hit, himself included.  He sighed as he watched them coming back to the SUV.

Oh, Mama, he thought, you were always more trouble than you were worth.  Sookie and Eric opened their doors and climbed in laughing together.  Sookie held out a pack of Twinkies to him.  “Bitch is you crazy?  That shit will kill you!”  She and Eric started laughing again.  Eric handed him a bottle of water.

“For your kidneys,” Sookie explained, still smiling.

“Riiiight,” he said taking the bottle.  “Any chance we could get some real food?  I could put a hurtin’ on a burger.” Sookie looked at Eric, he shrugged.

“I could eat.”

“You could always eat,” she said, still smiling.  “We’ll stop at the first place we see,” she assured them turning back to start the car.  Lafayette looked back and saw Eric looking at her face in the rearview mirror.  A blind man could have read the expression on his face.  He was falling for her, and her? Well, she was already gone.

Back at the beginning of this I had no idea I was going to be the villain, Lafayette thought as she pulled back onto the road.  Stories never end well for the villain.

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A half an hour later on the edge of Knoxville Sookie took an exit and pulled into a place called Sunshine Bar and Grille.  KARAOKE TONIGHT! The sign outside exclaimed. BEST BURGER IN TN! It said right below it.  When they were seated and had placed their order Lafayette excused himself to wash his hands leaving them at the table.

Eric looked at her, trying to think up something to say.  It was hard to make small talk when all the big talk was still unspoken.  Sensing his struggle she turned in the booth to look at the person on stage.  It was an older man singing a really bad version of Bad Girlfriend.  Trying to keep his ears from bleeding Eric leaned across the table and asked her if she wanted to sing.  Her cheeks flamed pink.  She shook her head.

“Can’t all supernaturals sing?” he teased her.

“Not even a little,” she assured him going a deeper pink.   He smiled at her, an evil glint in his eyes.

“Do you remember that I do like to sing?”  She flushed again and he really wanted to kiss her, again.

“I remember,” she said flashing back to his singing to her when she was Lily.  He had a really nice voice, not star quality but she had always loved when Eric had serenaded her, holding her floppy ears in his large hands as he sang I’m Just A Teenage Dirtbag like he was auditioning.  Some nights he had even gotten her up on her hind legs to dance with him.  Those awkward circles around his bedroom floor were some of her happiest memories.

Before she realized what he was doing he was out of the booth and headed to the book to find a song.  The place was nearly empty, despite having the best burger in Tennessee, so as soon as he found his song he moved to the stage and adjusted the mic for his height.

Her heart was pounding, her skin warm as she watched him.  When the music started she didn’t recognize the song but as he sang the words she realized that didn’t matter because Eric Northman was singing just to her.  She was in his room again, she was in some dive in Tennessee eight hundred miles away from his bedroom, she was in Heaven and she was in Hell.

She could feel the emotion rolling off him through the blood tie as he tried so very hard to tell her something that she would not give him a chance to just speak.

One look and I can’t catch my breath

Two souls into one flesh
When you’re not next to me
I’m incomplete

Cause I’m on fire like a thousand suns
I couldn’t burn it out
Even if I wanted to
These flames, tonight
Look into my eyes and say you want me to
Like I want you

Oh love let me see inside your heart
All the cracks and broken parts
The shadows in the light
There’s no need to hide

Cause I’m on fire like a thousand suns
I couldn’t burn it out
Even if I wanted to
These flames, tonight
Look into my eyes and say you want me to
Like I want you

It’s like a heartbeat ending
Yet, it’s never ending
Yet, I’ll burn for you (I’ll burn for you)

I’m on fire like a thousand suns
I couldn’t burn it out
Even if I wanted to
These flames, tonight
Look into my eyes and say you want me to
Like I want you

I got a hunger in me
I got a hunger in me

Her eyes were blurry and something was sliding down her face when he finished.  She reached up and found her face was wet.  She had never cried before, never, not once, but he had reduced her to a blubbering mess with a song, with all the emotion she could feel from him.  It was too much.

“Damn, boy’s got it bad for you, girl,” Lafayette said.  She jumped.  She didn’t even know he had returned to the table.  Fuck, some guard she was!  Letting herself get swept away in dreams that could never be.  The fact that she had lost herself, and failed to remain alert for trouble only underscored her mistake.  She moved to the edge of the booth standing to find herself facing a broad chest.  A moment later the hands that matched it came up and clasped her upper arms.

“Sookie, what’s wrong?” he asked, leaning down to speak in her ear.  She could feel the depth of his caring and it jammed her radar again, taking over all her senses, even her sense of self preservation.  Refusing to stay, but also refusing to hurt him without some explanation she took a breath and felt fresh tears come down her cheeks.

“I can’t…I can’t let this happen between us.  It’s too distracting.  You’re too distracting.  I can’t protect you and let all these feelings in.”  Her tone, filled with such longing and regret, cut into him more than her words.

This wasn’t going to happen for them.  It was all just a dream.  Just another part of this mess that had become his life that he didn’t understand at all.  He was trying to center himself by using this feeling he had for her, and he did feel for her.  Something about her called to him.  Everything else was shit and chaos but she was solid and real and she was the only thing in his life now that was.  He needed her!

“You only think you do, Eric.  You don’t really love me.  I’m just the thing you are holding onto keep from being swept away.”

“Don’t tell me what I feel for you!” he hissed to her.

“Then hear me when I tell you that I can’t keep you safe with stars in my eyes and dreams of something that can never be.  This,” she gestured back and forth between them, “Can never be, Eric, and no one on this fucking planet is sorrier about that than me.” Before he could answer her the waitress came with their order and she slipped away heading for the door to stand guard outside.

Eric stood there, his fists clenching as he breathed in and out slowly, hearing the weight of her words and the pain in the voice that had said them.  Lafayette looked at him.

“So, you goin’ after her or what?”  Eric spun on his heel and took advantage of his long legs reaching the door in a few giant strides.  He caught her just outside the door and spun her around to face him.

“No,” she managed to get out before his lips crashed into hers.  His kiss told her that he didn’t care about being saved if he didn’t get to have her.  She fought him, but only for a moment.  It was too hard to deny that she had wanted this to happen for so very long, and too easy to let herself feel him like she had always wanted to.

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A/N Special thanks to Ross Copperman for Hunger

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14 thoughts on “5. Hunger

  1. switbo says:

    OMG! Loved it. The image of Eric crooning that song is going to stick with me for a while. Whew.

    Feeling a bit better about the Lala situation and hoping he’s going to have a change of heart and do the right thing, but still a little heartbroken.

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  2. candykorn0 says:

    Thank you for updating so soon! Poor Lala, I understand better now and hope he has a change of heart and helps Eric.

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  3. Loved it!
    Eric sang for her!
    Great song BTW!
    I think Lala is going change sides…he realized that Sookie saved his life too!
    Jackie69

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  4. at least Lala got one thing right….things never go well for the villains in the end. poor Sookie. i actually understand her predicament. but sometimes we have to take risks, right? 🙂

    great chapter!

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  5. lostinspace33 says:

    Oh, I’m so sad that Lafayette is in on the plan to capture/kill them! I hope he’ll do the right thing and fess up before it’s too late.

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  6. ashmo2000 says:

    Yes, Lafayette is working for Warlow, I thought so. I hope he tells them soon. Now that Eric understands that 500k13 has always been the woman he loved although in Pet form(which is a little weird) maybe they can piece together why he needs protecting. Although if Lafayette would share with the class, Eric and Sookie would know it’s really her the Dark Fae King wants.

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  7. mom2goalies says:

    Sigh, that song, the kiss…
    But I truly hope Lafayette changes sides and talks to them about Warlow. Think Sookie needs to remember she was told her emotions could be an asset…..

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  8. mindyb781 says:

    Incredible. This is such a great story!!!! There were so many parts I liked. From the time in the gas station where Sookie drabs a bunch of twinkles (I laughed so hard). To finding out that LaLa as set them in more danger. To Eric’s declaration of Sookie always being there and that magical scene in the bar. And that kiss. Wow. So good and very exciting!!!!!

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  9. valady1 says:

    The song is perfect. And I can only hope Lafayette has a change of heart before it’s too late.

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  10. VictoryInTrouble says:

    woo-hoo! Go Eric! I hope Lala decides not to betray her since his boy loves her.

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  11. murgatroid98 says:

    My question about Lala was answered in this chapter. I hope his conscience wins out and his compassion for Eric. I wonder what Warlow wants with Sookie. Does he know what she is?

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  12. You just made my teenage self puddle into goo all over the floor. A singing Skarsi? What is this kryptonite? If he also writes music or plays the piano, I’ll be needing some defibrillation, stat!

    And that kiss! Can’t wait to see how those lovies felt that one!

    Okie-dokie, Lala, you’re not corrupted completely yet…

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