*SPOILERS* For those not familiar with the books Sookie is not happy with the bond and feels as though Eric uses it to manipulate her into feeling things that she would not feel under ordinary circumstances. At this point in the story they are in a relationship though she stubbornly refuses to leave her home in Bon Temps to be nearer to him where he can protect her from their many enemies.
Earlier in the story she had asked her witch friend Amelia to find a magical way to sever the bond between her and Eric so that she can get back to being herself. Nothing happens with that for several books and then out of the blue Amelia shows up with a spell to undo her connection to Eric. She has Amelia perform the spell without even talking to Eric about it. Once it is complete he calls her on this way frantic because he thought she was dead and she tells him what she has done. He is so angry that he tells her he can’t talk to her right then and he will call her later.
After the fact, she does seem to regret at least not telling him in advance but shows little remorse about the loss of the bond itself, though she knew almost nothing about it.
I hated that. I like this better.
Thousand Miles
I hit the door of Fangtasia like the hounds of Hell were on my heels. He has been sitting on his throne but rose immediately and moved to my side so fast I could not track him. He loomed over me, seeming to grow larger than his usual height, looking at me with concern on his face. The moment his hands touched my shoulders I closed my eyes and let out the breath I had been holding.
“Sookie? What’s wrong?” He shook me a little to make me answer. I opened my eyes and looked at him, really looked him for the first time since I don’t know when and I felt a tear slide down my cheek. Immediately, his thumb wiped it away. Then I was in his arms and we were out the door and into the night sky. He held me close and whispered soothing things in my ear as I held on to him tighter than I ever had before.
He took me into his house as soon as we landed in the yard and carried me to his large plush sofa keeping me in his arms and on his lap. “Tell me,” he pleaded into my hair and I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked for the words to express what I was feeling.
“I need to know something.” I looked up into his stormy blue eyes.
“Anything,” he said sincerely and waited for me to go on.
“Tell me everything about this bond between us.” I surprised him.
“Has something threatened you?” He hissed at me, his fangs coming down at the thought of someone trying to hurt me.
“No, maybe. I don’t know. I have a chance to break this bond and I almost did it tonight without talking to you. I…realized that before I did that I wanted to understand what this truly is, this connection between us.”
“You no longer wish to be bonded to me?” In split second he had gone from vicious protector to broken hearted lover. A few words had completely crushed him. I had completely crushed him. My hands went immediately to his face and I turned in his lap to face him, needing to feel him close.
“I don’t know. I don’t know what it means really. I need you to tell me.” He fell back against the cushions and closed his eyes, clearly trying to reign in his stormy emotions. He sat there completely still and I started to fear that he would push me off his lap and tell me to fuck off.
“Eric?” I asked, my voice shaking.
“I forget how young you are, lover. I forget that you don’t know the things I take for granted.” I nodded, not really agreeing, because I didn’t know for sure what he was talking about, but wanting to encourage him to go on. I needed him desperately to go on. “I was afraid that you would come to hate me for what happened in Rhodes.”
“I don’t hate you, Eric. Never that. I just don’t understand what this all means and you never explained it.”
“Don’t you trust me to know what is best?” His eyes were open now and I felt naked and alone even though he was right there with me.
“I trust you to keep me safe, when you can.” He twitched beneath me and I felt like I had staked him in the heart. We had not healed from the time I had been taken and Victor had silvered him to keep him from my side. His disappointment in his failure to protect me hung about his like a cloak of miserableness.
I should have been more aware of that but I had been caught up in trying to survive myself and had nothing left to give him as he mourned. I was mourning, too. It was a wound that we shared and he had given me everything he had not taking the time to handle his own emotional fall out. The fact that he still carried it with him was evident when he was not able to meet my gaze. We would get to that, but first I needed to know about this bond.
“Eric, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that the way it sounded. I meant that you believe you are doing what is best for me, in your opinion. I am asking you to help me form my own opinion by teaching me the things you take for granted.” After a moment he shook off his melancholy and looked at me.
“Close your eyes, Sookie.” I wasn’t sure what that would do, but what the hell. I did it and waited. “Listen, not with your ears but with your whole body. Take some deep breaths and clear your mind.” His hands came back to my waist, supporting me and then pulling me into his arms again so that I could rest on his chest. “Let all the tension leave your body and believe that right now, you are in the safest place you could be. No worries, no concerns, no doubts. There is only you and you are floating in a sea of warmth and comfort.”
His voice was so soothing and hypnotic that I felt myself doing as he said, growing more and more relaxed and in tune with myself as the moments passed. “Now, focus on your heartbeat and listen.” At first there was only the soft beat that filled me and then I thought I heard something else under that. Something that sang with a crystal melody, sharp, clear and beautiful. As I focused on it the sound became clearer and I felt myself floating toward it wanting to be closer.
Outside I snuggled deeper into my vampire, moaning softly in pleasure and contentment. “That sound you hear, Sookie, visualize what it looks like and describe it to me.” His voice sounded so distant and yet it was inside me as well. I heard myself answer him, but my words sounded far away and slow to my ears that were focused on the sounds I was following.
“It’s like…a thousand crystal bells, playing all at once. It’s strong and unbreakable and yet so fragile that one wrong move would shatter it.” I could see them then, refracting light like prisms as they played. They went up into the sky until I couldn’t see them anymore. They were incredibly large, each one the size of my house or bigger but I knew somehow that was just the way I was seeing them. It was all about perspective. “Follow them, Sookie. Let yourself go and follow them to where they take you.”
I felt my body rise up and wind around them, spiraling into the sky, through the clouds and into somewhere else entirely. I could still hear them and still see them but I shifted focus to look for where the crystal path led. I gasped when I saw him, floating in the night sky, the crystal bells leading right to my Eric. His arms were floating akimbo and his eyes were closed with the most peaceful look on his face.
If the bells had been the size of my house, this floating image of my vampire lover was the size of Louisiana itself. I felt my heart double pump as I beheld his beauty in this place. In the night sky it seemed he wore a crown made of the stars themselves and I felt tears come to my eyes. He was so beautiful!
Suddenly his eyes opened and he looked down at me, so tiny in comparison to his gargantuan form. The warmth of his smile was a thousand suns and when he held his arms open to me I moved toward them like a compass to true north. I belonged there.
When I felt his arms close around me I realized that I was now the same size as him and when I looked down I saw that the spiraling path of crystal bells actually started in my chest and ended in his. In them I could see galaxies spiraling, planets and suns and supernovas that winked and then blinked out as though eons had passed in a less than a second.
When he pulled me against him the bond ignited as it pressed between us and the flash of light was so bright that I tried to shield my eyes. When I tried to look again we were wrapped around each other floating in space.
“Our bond connects us to each other, but it is much more than that. It connects us to everything, everything, Sookie, more strongly than ever before. I can feel you, and you can feel me and we are no longer two, we are one. One being with all of our gifts focused on piercing the darkness around us. There is nothing we can’t do or be if we are together.” He swung an arm out the universe around us. “Do you hate me so much that you would give all this up?” I felt his pain in my chest and the sound of perfect crystal bells become chaotic and off key. This was what discord in our bond sounded like.
“I do not hate you, and don’t you ever say that to me again, Eric Northman!” the discord grew louder.
“Then why would you think of leaving me?” Blood tears rimmed his eyes now and I felt my heart break as his pain washed over me. I pushed it back. I thought of him and our times together and pushed that back at him full force, fighting him in this new way to make him see the things that he would purposefully forget to make his case against me.
I wondered for a moment if I could accidentally kill him with the force of my love. When I saw him shake at the onslaught of my emotions I pulled some of it back, wrapping my arms around him. “I’m sorry,” I said into his hair as I held him to my breast and sent him soothing peaceful thoughts. Slowly, the crystal bells found their rhythm again and resumed their beautiful melody. When he was settled I went on.
“I didn’t know about any of this. I didn’t know we could experience anything like this.”
“You were never open to it. You immediately assumed the worst in Rhodes. Since then you have fought me at every side, resenting me and the bond and pulling away from me. It has been so painful, Sookie. It was like having exactly what I had always wanted within my grasp and not being able to touch it.” Darkness rolled through the bond then, burning anger and shards of pain and loneliness that once again sent the bells off their tune. Immediately he looked at me, regret in his eyes again.
“I’m sorry, Sookie. I didn’t want you to feel that.” I was gasping and still processing that storm that had run through me.
“Why…why would you hide that from me?”
“Isn’t that obvious?”
“Oh, fuck you, Eric! You tell me that I can’t accept who you are and what is between us and then you set about hiding yourself from me taking away my chance to accept it at all! You don’t get to have it both ways! You are not alone in this anymore! I am here, too and this is not just about your anymore, buster. It’s about me, too! Us! Pick a side damn it and tell me what you want!”
“I want you, foolish woman! I have always wanted you! Before I even met you, you were what I would think of when I thought of what I needed to go on.”
“Then stop hiding from me!”
“I wasn’t hiding from you! I was…protecting you.” His voice trailed off at the last part.
“No wonder you were so angry at me.”
“What do you mean?”
“Well, I may be young as you say, but I let my feelings out. Loudly, and often. I say whatever comes to my mind and do whatever I want. You hold everything inside and pretend you don’t feel anything at all. How you must resent me.”
“You are too reckless, Sookie.”
“Perhaps, but you are too repressed, Eric.” The corner of his mouth came up.
“Perhaps.”
“If we are in this then we are in this. You get heaping buckets of my crazy immaturity and I get your frustration and anger and we work through that together. We get it out of the way and we know that despite our faults we are in this together. I need that, or I am going to break this bond.”
I felt his fear at my words, and then I felt him bring it under control. I sighed. He wasn’t hearing me.
“Tell me, Eric, don’t press it down.”
“I don’t want you to end the bond. It is not practical to leave yourself so exposed.” I raised an eyebrow at him waiting. He tried again. “Being joined to you makes me feel alive again, Sookie. Everything about you makes me feel alive again. I don’t want to lose this connection with you. This is just the beginning I think,” he said gesturing around again. “There has never been a union like ours and there is no way to know what our limits are or if there are any at all. I want to explore that with you.” He kissed me then, and I felt the depth of his love for me sing in our bond. It was the most beautiful sound I have ever heard.
I opened my eyes in his lap and covered his face in kisses, baptizing him in my tears. He undressed me slowly, reverently and when we joined I saw the starscape of crystal bells again. We moved in time with their tune and played our song all through the night.
[…] Thousand Miles *One Shot* […]
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Great imagery. Thank you. Sigh
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You are most welcome! Glad you liked it! 🙂
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Great imagery. Thank you. Sigh
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Damn, that was quite a visual you painted! Amazing.
It always amazed me that over the course of so many books and again through 7 tv seasons that the character of Sookie never grew, but at times seemed to regress.
Thank you for sharing these points of view that are so more detailed then the original and much more satisfying.
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You are welcome! I think that where the story focused depends on the bent of the author. I, personally, am more drawn to the supernatural elements of the SVM Universe. CH seemed to be more interested in who was gossiping, lying and cheating in the human world. From my POV she wasted a great playground, but I am sure that plenty of her readers liked the human element of her stories. The things that attract me would not attract them. I know about human pettiness, I would want to explore the magic 🙂 To each his own though, that is what makes this world we live in worth even the tiniest damn. Thank you so much for reading!
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I agree. I started reading them because of the vampires! Have been interested in vampires since grade school and Dark Shadows (yup, just dated myself!) Prefer books and stories to totally take me out of my world, so enjoy most supernatural aspects but love vampires
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I am right there with you! 🙂 even in the dating myself. Barnabas Collins…he was dark and dreamy with his ring and his cane. Wow that takes me back 🙂 Thanks for the time warp 🙂
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Kinda surreal talking to you about this story as I’m reading your next one!
Yes, I still call large stone rings Barnabas rings, especially if worn on index finger, lol
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That is awesome, cause I have a ring that I wear that way, no stone just silver and I think of it as my secret Barnabas ring!! 🙂
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Lovely imagery –oh my! Again, righting the wrongs of “The Maker”….
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Thank you, I am glad you liked my descriptions! 🙂
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So much better!
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Thank you ;).
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Wow, that was beautiful. What a way to describe it. Really showcases the depth of their bond and how immense it is and how meaningful for Eric. And now Sookie, hopefully. Love that he held her and immediately flew her to his home because she was in need of him. I’m glad she asked him to explain before she did something so stupid. Man, I’m really glad I never read these books, lol.
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Eric in the books was very attentive to her when she needed him. Or maybe that is just all the fanfiction getting twisted in my brain. 🙂 Either way, I like caring Eric, too 🙂
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Perfect! The books would have been so much more satisfying if you had wrote them! 🙂
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That is an amazing compliment and I thank you very much. I have been thinking of that a lot and I know they would have been different because I enjoy supernatural magical things. Their focus would have been very different, and I am super pleased to know that you would have been a fan 😉 Thank you for reading 🙂
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You have wonderful imagery. 🙂
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Thank you, Gyllene! 🙂
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so good! i agree your way to make us visualize the bond was soooo perfect
i think of this new ‘series’ of yours as having the title “SVM – I hated that. I like this better.” what a great enterprise!!!
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So this made me laugh out loud! I love it! Some of the others have asked me for PDF’s when I am done and I am seriously leaning toward using your title cause it’s just that damned good! Thank you! 🙂
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Yept – it made me think of Sesame St ‘One of these things… is not like the other…’ Not sure why but glad you it amused you… Small token of one’s appreciation!!!
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truly beautiful and I so need more of this!!!
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Thank you! It only gets more supernaturally after this. That bond is more powerful in my mind than any other weapon they have…if we come back who knows what we might see?
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What a lovely, visually wonderful description of the bond. Loved the idea of it having a melodic sound that went out of harmony when they argued.
Way better than the books and I agree with momtogoalies above…it was really frustrating that Sookie never seemed to mature or grow during 13 books (or 7 Seasons). I think she actually regressed!
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She did regress and that regression will be something I want to take a shot at very soon! Stay tuned! 🙂
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Imagine how much better it could’ve been had Sookie just talked to Eric before completing the spell. Eric too, if he only told her how he really felt or better yet, just showed Sookie. Then again, all the awesome writers wouldn’t have anything to write about.
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This got me thinking…no matter how great a story is there are ways for others to turn and change things. It got me thinking about FF writers who write stories that take main characters apart and how something good and perfect still has room for change and improvement. Thanks for making me think 🙂
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Fabulous!
The image you described their bond is absolutely perfect!
This version is much better…
I always hated that Sookie broke the bond without telling Eric…
she never asked herself if the bond between them was severed what were the consequences…very childish indeed!
In fact after Book 11 I stopped reading the books…
I knew deep inside that the author didn’t want a HEA for our favourite couple!
Jackie69
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They were very hard to read after 11. I was doing some research for an upcoming one shot this morning and it was too hard I had to stop. It was the same way with Season 7, I own it but have only watched it once when it aired. It’s too hard knowing what is coming to sit down and see it again. I appreciate your comments and ongoing support very much! 🙂 Thank you!
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You really are righting all the wrongs. I think Sookie breaking the bond without even talking to Eric was one of the most frustrating and annoying things in the book. You brought up all the points here, Eric should have talked to Sookie about the bond too. This story captured all these points. This was visually beautiful too. WOW !
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That she was able to break the bond bothered me. First, it was supposed to be forever, and then turned into a plot device. Second, the bond itself should have stopped her from doing it, because it would have protected her from doing anything that would cause her harm, or so I thought. That is why in my story it sent her running to him frantic to get information on what it meant. I saw it as a living breathing thing, but maybe that was just me. Thanks for reading 🙂
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Beautiful! That was such an amazing description of the bond. I want one!!! CH really messed up when she let Amelia and Sookie break it. Stupid! I love what you have done here! I agree, I like this better. 🙂
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Your description of the bond paints an incredibly beautiful picture of what it means, and more importantly what it can be for both of them. Your one shots are pure delight.
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That was beautiful. She always should have talked to him about breaking the bond. I have always hated the way she did it. Thank you for fixing it. I’m sorry I haven’t reviewed each of the one shots. I’ve been behind on my reading and am now plowing through them one after another. 🙂
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Eric commanded me to come here and I obey! Thank you for sharing your talent. I look forward to reading more. ❤
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Thank you 🙂
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